The only way is through.
Nothing really matters. It’s funny, when you say that, you give yourself the freedom to engage in activities which you can ultimately choose to deem meaningful. But sometimes, you only give yourself to something when you realize it doesn’t matter; meaning whether it does or does not (Schrodinger’s meaning), in that moment, you have the freedom to be as authentic as you possibly can be. There are enough valuable, meaningful things outside of any one thing insothat no one thing has to be placed so highly. And that does not mean to neglect things that you like.
Just let yourself make mistakes; it’s like one of the best ways to learn. Don’t try to make a mistake – then it’s not a mistake. Just don’t hold yourself back from action for fear of making the mistake – you’ll learn the lesson 10x stronger and 10x faster if you just act and make the mistake; you can always recalibrate, right. Give yourself to your life; allow yourself to be shaped and molded. Set yourself up to be in a position where you give yourself. Set yourself up in a position where you make mistakes.
Grow from them; Build stronger; Learn, absorb more; and realize who you are and what you want, ultimately. (right now)